I cannot see them anymore....
I've been thinking over the past few days and noticing how everything in my close environment and in the wider environment that is my country how everything has deranged in leftism, deviancy, self destructive behavior, stress and anxiety.
What all this had generated is that now more than ever I feel the need to step back from everything and everyone as right now, and after witnessing it over and over across all kinds of game communities with the latest one being the PSO community, no space is safe from leftism.
But is not a matter of looking for a safe space anymore, is that directly I will just scream and curse to death to anyone daring to just defend something that cannot be defended anymore, at this point theres no logic or consensus anymore.
I'm not gonna wish the leftoids to just die because they will all kill themselves anyways in their ultra toxic groups on reddit, discord, you take it. But I just want to see them dissapear from my sight, I don't want to talk with them anymore, I'm tired of them.
Likewise I'm also tired from people on the 'right' side that believes they suddenly have the high moral ground because of religion/family/etc, they are as selfish and arrogants at the worst leftoids out there and in fact, they just went full circle and began to act like the persons they despised the most. If not worse!
AT THE END OF THE DAY, EVERYONE WERE SOCIALISTS!! what a surprise!! (NOT)
Right now I want to live in peace I've been dealing with insanity for almost 25 years straight with no rest, and had created a huge toll on me.
You have no idea how much I want to take a plane and fly somewhere far away and in fact is that i've been researching these last couple of months, is just that suddenly, the plan had began to move at a much more faster pace.
But then you might ask "but cat, if you disconnect like that you will be totally alone are you sure about it??? is not healthy..." and I totally agree, and to be honest I don't know how to answer this question either... all I can tell you is that this compound of situations had generated on me this feeling to just stay away from everyone.
But hey maybe is not the peoples fault, is the fault of all the current people in my current environment! (this is my highest hope) as I expect and dont lose faith to find more like minded people in the future...
Or maybe its all my fault too and I haven't discovered the reason of it anymore, I always had issues with relationships of all kinds be lovers,frieds, family, etc. It's very likely that also something is very wrong on me but my knowledge is very limited I always continue to research possible causes that might be affecting me and how I see the world as well, but I haven't found anything convincing yet...
One thing that every psychologist I've visited had told me is to just make an effort to change my environment that maybe is the environment? but they havent elaborated much on specifics regarding that..
So overall i'm pretty alone with this I will continue doing my best to continue understanding this crazy world and understanding my poor head too....
Take care cat
What all this had generated is that now more than ever I feel the need to step back from everything and everyone as right now, and after witnessing it over and over across all kinds of game communities with the latest one being the PSO community, no space is safe from leftism.
But is not a matter of looking for a safe space anymore, is that directly I will just scream and curse to death to anyone daring to just defend something that cannot be defended anymore, at this point theres no logic or consensus anymore.
I'm not gonna wish the leftoids to just die because they will all kill themselves anyways in their ultra toxic groups on reddit, discord, you take it. But I just want to see them dissapear from my sight, I don't want to talk with them anymore, I'm tired of them.
Likewise I'm also tired from people on the 'right' side that believes they suddenly have the high moral ground because of religion/family/etc, they are as selfish and arrogants at the worst leftoids out there and in fact, they just went full circle and began to act like the persons they despised the most. If not worse!
AT THE END OF THE DAY, EVERYONE WERE SOCIALISTS!! what a surprise!! (NOT)
Right now I want to live in peace I've been dealing with insanity for almost 25 years straight with no rest, and had created a huge toll on me.
You have no idea how much I want to take a plane and fly somewhere far away and in fact is that i've been researching these last couple of months, is just that suddenly, the plan had began to move at a much more faster pace.
But then you might ask "but cat, if you disconnect like that you will be totally alone are you sure about it??? is not healthy..." and I totally agree, and to be honest I don't know how to answer this question either... all I can tell you is that this compound of situations had generated on me this feeling to just stay away from everyone.
But hey maybe is not the peoples fault, is the fault of all the current people in my current environment! (this is my highest hope) as I expect and dont lose faith to find more like minded people in the future...
Or maybe its all my fault too and I haven't discovered the reason of it anymore, I always had issues with relationships of all kinds be lovers,frieds, family, etc. It's very likely that also something is very wrong on me but my knowledge is very limited I always continue to research possible causes that might be affecting me and how I see the world as well, but I haven't found anything convincing yet...
One thing that every psychologist I've visited had told me is to just make an effort to change my environment that maybe is the environment? but they havent elaborated much on specifics regarding that..
So overall i'm pretty alone with this I will continue doing my best to continue understanding this crazy world and understanding my poor head too....
Take care cat
